I thought about titling this “Pushing Through the Wall”, but sometimes, it isn’t a wall. Sometimes it’s sludge. Sometimes it’s those static-clingy things like packing peanuts. Or what feels like super glue. Or… well, I think you see my point.
It’s the third week of January. The year is still NEW and yet already feels like it’s been around forever, amirite?
Well, maybe not to you. But I’m willing to bet there’s a whole glut of folks out there who skated into the new year with the shiny, hopeful resolutions and are already shedding them and either feeling like failures, or they are finding that big ol’ eraser and pretending they never even made those silly resolutions because holy crap, those suckers are IMPOSSIBLE.
What were we thinking?
Of course, I don’t actually make resolutions. (You can read more about why, here… except, wait, I just re-read that post and apparently I DID make resolutions last year. Too bad I can’t remember what the other 2 were…) What I DO like to do is encourage new beginnings at all times. In other words, just because you think you failed at your resolution, doesn’t mean you can’t start again now and try again. Resolve to re-resolve.
Right around now is when it is easy to slip. To trip. To fall down completely. This also means that right around now is the perfect time to remind yourself of why you can achieve those resolutions, those goals.
Let me tell you about where I am slipping right now. It’s not an uncommon thing (in fact it is probably one of the top most in-common things writers have with each other).
(What if no one likes what I’m writing? What if it sucks? What if I’ve been fooling myself all this time? Why do I seriously think anyone would want to read my stories? Good grief these are tiresome statements, aren’t they?)
I have lots of reasons of why I think my self-doubt is justified. Don’t we all? Sure, a couple reasons might be legit (none of which were listed above), but honestly, the rest is BS.
Time to PUSH THROUGH.
Because, let’s face it. Our resolutions now are probably different than they were in past years, right? Which means we have already made PROGRESS. It’s important to remember that and what we’ve accomplished. This is how I am pushing through and fighting the self-doubt. I am remembering how much I have accomplished, how far I have come, even in the past year, let alone the past 3 or so. Plus, in spite of the many fears and doubt I have about my current manuscript (and for many reasons, I have tons), I also know what I have written before and you know what? I’ve written some good stuff. There is some good stuff in my current story, too. I just have to re-read it sometimes to remind myself.
It’s only Week 3. Or in my case, it’s only Day 1. And if we trip, we get up, start again, and PUSH THROUGH.
We’ve got this.
What about you? Will today be Week “ugh” or your brand new day? What helps you push through?
I can’t remember if I’ve used this song before, but here are some of the lyrics to encourage you:
Most kind of stories
Save the best part for last
And most stories have a hero who finds
You make your past your past
Yeah you make your past your past