The Best Way to Fail At Your Resolutions

One way to become a better reader is to read more.

One way to become a better writer is to write more.

The best way to write more is to, uh…write more.

Seems pretty simple, doesn’t it?

For someone who loves writing—the rush of characters saying and doing things almost of their own free will, creating beautiful turns of phrase, coming up with that perfect plot point—it sure is remarkable how easy it is to stop.

Over the course of the past year I’ve given myself permission to take breaks for lots of reasons. I started a new manuscript last July which I’m really excited about. The format (epistolary – I’m aiming for 100% non-standard narrative) slows me down at times, but it’s fun and has a lot of potential.

Inevitably, until I get to about the 50% mark in a draft, I often falter. Then sputter. Then, _______________________________________ (< — that’s a flatline, btw. Aren’t I great with visuals??) If I didn’t know this was inevitable, all I would need to do is search through my multiple blog posts where I’ve addressed this exact same issue. (Drone on, much, Janet?)

Usually I come upon the flatline point because I am suddenly neck-deep in work or family or nothing-at-all stuff, leaving me with the ridiculous challenge of starting back up in a story I’ve sort of left fading away.

Here’s where I finally explain my blog post title.

For the past couple of months, maybe even three, I was thinking my 2019 resolution was BELIEVE. And man, I have been trying really hard. I’d even been having more success at it than when it was actually my resolution…in 2018.

I’m embarrassed to say I forgot what my word was this year. PERSEVERE.

The good news is in some areas of my life, I’ve been doing great with this resolution. I’ve needed to get my game on and persevere. Maybe I kind of forgot it was my resolution, but my brain still had it in there somewhere?

No? Maybe? Whatever. Now it’s time to get my act together on that resolution for my writing path. It’s time to look at my current WIPs and dig in. Regaining momentum is hard work, y’all. This is where the mantra “write every day” has its merits. I don’t think it’s mandatory to do it, but it sure does help to do it as often as possible because writing every day keeps me in the story. It keeps my characters alive and active in the back of my head where they like to take up residence. It helps me insert my characters into the real life situations that I experience every day.

Fortunately, my characters are calling to me. I’ve been putting in some words every day now for the past few days. They are few, but, PROGRESS. I gotta keep at it. “Persevere” might include the idea of sticking to something even if there is “little or no prospect of success” except we all know there are multiple ideas of what success looks like.

Consider this post YOUR jump start back into your resolutions. Have you forgotten about them? Hmm?

WE GOT THIS.

Here’s some motivational music to help us:

I got a song and a smile so bright
I’ll make you wish you were here tonight

And if you tell the world your secrets
You never know
They’re set in stone
Or what can grow

Posted in Writing | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment

Monday Minutiae – 03.11.2019

Listening Comprehension

For my current WIP, I’ve got a book theme… as in, it’s circles the idea of one of those “100 Books Everyone Should Read Before They Die” lists. And because of that, I’m discovering that Cliff’s Notes (or Spark’s Notes, the online version) aren’t necessarily enough for me to feel comfortable referring to for my characters to discuss their books. But man, I have a hard enough time trying to keep up with all the books I want to read for the FIRST time let alone adding in re-reading some that I didn’t even necessarily love. So, I’m taking advantage of the audio book route. One fun discovery: Animal Farm on disc from my library was read by Ralph Cosham, who narrated so many of my favorite mystery series by Louise Penny. It was like a warm welcome. I’ve plenty more books in the line-up. Maybe I’ll succomb to listening at a faster rate…

Summer Reading List

On a related note… I came across this article about books that are commonly required of students in various countries throughout the world and it’s pretty interesting! Not only are the titles interesting, but the reasons for including them in that country’s literary canon. Much like here in the U.S, some reasons seem great, others…not so much. My TBR just toppled over into a huge mess and I am tripping all over the place with what to read next.

Works Cited

Even more on books… piracy has always been and will always be a problem. This article talks about the frustration of misinformation some piracy hosts blatantly propagate. No, authors do NOT think it’s okay to go download their book for free from a random site. Years ago, a site called Napster was sued for illegal music piracy and was used for quite some time as the poster child for proprietary advocacy of musicians and their work. We have all probably shared music illicitly at some point, but when I started teaching about copyright to my students – which explored things like artistic piracy, I changed my ways. I buy the music for my writing playlists. I buy books – and if I don’t buy them, then I borrow them in the way they are supposed to be read for free – from the library.

Currently Reading (print): Merci Suárez Changes Gears by Meg Medina

Currently Reading (audio): Lord of the Flies by William Golding (I know, but the things we do for writing research!)

Song of the Week:

Not long ago, I put together a playlist of music that brought me back to my childhood days – you know, in the time of no personal digital accounts to find my own music so I listened to parents’ vinyls. Here is one of my nostalgic listens:

Posted in Reading, Writing | Tagged , , , , | Leave a comment

Monday Minutiae – 02/11/19

Daily Oral Language
My friend and colleague, Jeff Zupfer, makes music. He writes lots of different things, but because he also teaches music at an elementary school, he writes a lot of children’s music. During our cold-cold-cold #PolarVortex days here in Minnesota, he wrote a song… about Minnesota. What made me even happier was that it made it into The Current’s (one of our local NPR radio stations) Friday Five. Well deserved! (Also, take a listen… it’s catchy!)
 
 
Black History Month
Brooklyn teacher Hollie Tubbs was a teacher recently featured who created a gorgeous door design to honor Black History month. Another friend and colleague of mine, EL teacher Hodan, replicated it with her classroom door at our school – LOVE:
hodan_blackhistorymonthdoor
Check out the many other awesome variations that people have been sharing online.

 

Submitting Assignments
This little tidbit shared via Twitter simply made me smile. Some random person took out a full page ad in a newspaper to talk about some general grievances along with some general kudos. There are a lot of good bits, but I kind of especially liked the general “I am pleased with cheeseburgers.” I wonder if he meant to address it to a specific restaurant or chain, but it’s quite entertaining without the specificity.
 
Reading Minutes
Kudos to this bookstore… I’ve been helping out with giving book talks at work lately and my one big goals is to avoid pointing out whether a book might be more interesting to boys or girls. I often specifically like to mention when one of my boys has really liked a book that has girl protagonists, because I think at the elementary level is when we really have to work hard at breaking those stereotypes. When this bookstore demonstrates the quote, “You know what I mean” when talking about looking for a “boy” book (although in the linked tweet it talks about “girl” books) I do “know” what they mean, but it isn’t accurate. Let’s all start being more specific about what we really mean when we’re trying to find a style of book for someone. Action? Adventure? Animals? Loyalty? Friendship? Identity?
 
Currently Reading (print): Felix Yz – Lisa Bunker (MG/YA)
 
Currently Reading (audio): Home for the Holidays (Mother-Daughter Book Club Series) – Heather Vogel Frederick (MG)
 
Song of the Week:
 

Posted in Listening, Reading, Teaching | Tagged , , , , , | 2 Comments

Do the Work

Do you know what’s comforting?

To realize that sometimes, when you’re feeling sluggish and unaccomplished one month into a new year, it isn’t unusual. To discover that this is how you feel each and every year at around this time.

I was paging through old posts, knowing that some of what I was going to write about today I’ve touched upon before. And sure enough….

January 20, 2015:

“It’s the third week of January. The year is still NEW and yet already feels like it’s been around forever, amirite?”

February 9, 2017:

“So, January happened.”

I can relate to these memes:

There are a lot of things that made January feel like forever (and often the Minnesota cold is a big one – Polar Vortex anyone?), but finding the motivation to get back into writing was a big one. I tried to do NaNo last year and basically quit not much more than a week in, because I had too many other factors working against me. I gave myself permission to step back.

But man, I “stepped back” for waaayyy too long. I have a really good WIP started and waiting for me. I should be able to jump right back in, right?

Ugh. It isn’t as easy as it sounds. Sometimes I’ve sort of dismissed it when people say they are impressed with me having written entire novels; yet it is this part of the process that I should remember because yep, there’s work involved with writing and yep, pushing through and finishing the novels is a big deal.

And so, I am taking my deep breaths, joyfully saying goodbye to January, and sitting down to Do the Work. I’m going to do the things I know will help me… getting my daily swim in, listening to my music playlist for this project, making time, and I will persevere.

How does January treat you? How do you overcome the obstacle of getting back into your project, be it writing or otherwise?

I like OAR’s recent song, “I Go Through” for various reasons (and it’s on my WIP playlist), but these lyrics speak to me right now:

We go ’round and around it

We go over and under

We go through

Posted in Writing | Tagged , , , , | Leave a comment

Janet’s Reading Stats: 2018 in Review

If I were one to have a “number of books read” goal, 2018 probably would have been a banner year for me. I read 115 books!

Not like I have to qualify my reading or anything, but to make some people feel better, I read many children’s chapter books, which are 15-30 minute reads, so that helped pad my numbers.

More personally for me than setting a goal for number of books read was who and what I was reading.

Last year, I said this:

I am most disappointed with my #ownvoices statistics. 20% is a really poor showing, especially from someone who claims to be an advocate. Obviously this doesn’t mean I’m not an advocate, but it really highlights how much further I have to go in putting my money where my mouth is.”

And so, my goal this year was to make a much more conscious effort to increase this percentage.

Here is something that I did: like many big readers, I have a crazy long “To Be Read” list. In fact, I think it was last year that I switched over from using Evernote to One Note and now I have a TBR list in Evernote, a new one in One Note, the ones I marked in Goodreads, the bookmarked booklists in my browser, the favorited tweets, and of course, the random emails and slips of paper. (It’s totally under control.) What I used to do was simply add to my list when I read or heard of a great book and here and there I would reserve from the library one those listed books. This year, however, whenever the book was by an #ownvoices author, I immediately placed it on my holds list at the library (if available) instead of just writing it down.

And while sometimes that put my reading schedule on the crazy side (8 books on hold all coming in at once, anyone?), it also meant I had a continual feed of really great books.

55% of the books I read in 2018 were by #ownvoices authors. Way better than 2017. And still further to go for 2019.

#ownvoices 2018

A couple of other miscellaneous stats:

author gender 2018

category 2018

I enjoy this kind of tracking. I think it’s useful to get a true analysis of what and who I am reading. For example, when I say I read widely, am I telling the truth? Or is it just what I like to say to make me sound interesting? Looking at the chart below, sure, 48% of my reading material is contemporary, but the rest is made up of a lot of other things, so yeah, I’m giving myself permission to keep saying I read all kinds of things.

genre 2018

If you’d like to track your reading in the same way I have, here is a copy of my log template, which is adapted from BookRiot’s Rachel Manwill.

And here, also, are a few of my top 2018 recs – in no particular order and not all-inclusive because honestly, I read a ton of really stand-out books this past year:

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe – Benjamin Alire Saénz (YA)

The Girl Who Drank the Moon  – Kelly Barnhill (MG) ß especially good in audiobook, btw

The Poet X – Elizabeth Acevedo (YA)

Half a Yellow Sun – Chimamanda Ngozie Adichie (A)

An American Marriage – Tayari Jones (A)

The Great Passage – Shion Miura (A)

Echo – Pam Muñoz Ryan (MG)

The Hating Game – Sally Thorne (A)

The Rosie Project – Graeme Simsion (A)

Alvin Ho: Allergic to Girls, School, and Other Scary Things – Lenore Look (MG)

The Calculating Stars – Mary Robinette Kowal (A)

The Way to Bea – Kate Yeh (MG)


And to start out 2019:

Currently reading (print): Bridge of Clay – Markus Zusak (YA)

Currently reading (audio): How Hard Can It Be? – Allison Pearson (A)

What were some of your top 2018 reads? What should I add immediately?

(Tell the world about the [books we’ve read]…)

 

 

 

 

Posted in Reading | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Persevere

Invest-Commit-Believe-PERSEVERE

I debated holding onto my 2018 One Word Resolution of BELIEVE because, to be frank, or frances, the whole “Believe” thing didn’t go so well last year. I’m not saying 2018 was a bad year; it was actually a pretty great year in many areas. Professionally, personally – there’s a lot I can celebrate. A lot where Believe succeeded.

When it comes down to it, Believe broke down when applied to my journey to publication. Following that dream is NOT for the impatient, the insecure, the self-righteous, or the weak-hearted. And I don’t mean you can be one of those things for awhile and not the others. It feels like you simply can’t be ANY of them at any time at all.

You can see where I struggled. Still struggle.

Where Believe came into play was in my writing. I had to remember that the writing was the important thing. Not the other stuff. The other stuff can’t ever be more than the writing itself.

So I’m now deciding Believe worked. It’s an accomplishment. I started a new writing project and you know what? I definitely believe in it (even if I haven’t worked on it for the past 6 weeks. SHHHHHHHH.) Believe is not finished (just as Invest and Commit have not been abandoned), but I’m ready to move on for 2019.

persevere

“Continue in a course of action even in the face of difficulty or with little or no prospect of success.” (New Oxford American Dictionary)

That sort of sounds like stubborn or pig-headed…. But CONNOTATION MATTERS. It does! I swear! Although, who cares – in this case, if it means I keep writing and trying to publish, then connote whatever you like. If it means keeping at the things that propel my professional life, then persistent I shall be. If it means devoting the necessary time and resources for my personal goals, then stubborn, it is.

If it means continual work at the previous years’ one-word resolutions, I will STICK IT OUT.

And you? What is your one word, one phrase, one theme, one whatever for 2019?

Jordin Sparks gets it. She’s telling me yes, keep at it, one step at a time:

One step at a time / There’s no need to rush

It’s like learning to fly / Or falling in love

It’s gonna happen and it’s / Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why /One step at a time

Posted in Learning, Musing | Tagged , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Monday Minutiae -12/17/18

Intervention Support

You know how you put a bunch of books on hold at the library, and they ALL come in at once? If you think that is overwhelming, imagine this person:

megaholdsstack

Sound off in the comments your ideas on why that person put so many different books on hold (varying publishing dates, authors, etc). Are they going up to a secluded cabin and want to bring a mini-library with them? Are they feeling the pressure of their Goodreads reading challenge and don’t want to waste time coming back to the library?

Extra Recess

A recent reason to smile: an elementary school colleague reminding a 10-year old boy not to run  and he converts his run into a skip. One can’t possibly argue with that cheerful response.

Daily 5

A friend shared this post about putting in the practice to achieve creative goals in one of my FB writing groups recently and I love the universal nature of it. He talks about how he spend a year learning guitar and lists some simple steps he took to do it. Here was what he said about his daily practice goal:

I created a simple rule to define my year of guitar playing: I must practice each and ever day for at least one minute.

That’s it.

The one minute rule was meant to make it ridiculously easy for me to find success. There isn’t a single day where I couldn’t justify picking up the guitar and strumming a G chord for 60 seconds. Some days, that is honestly all I did.

Earlier in the year, I realized I was having a hard time doing the “write every day” thing. And even though I don’t think that is any kind of hard and fast rule (do what works for you), I knew I needed something to help me regain some momentum. I read about a “write 100 words for 100 days”. And like the “practice each day for 1 minute”, some days I literally wrote exactly 100 words. But 100 words isn’t that hard overall, and it worked. It got me back into my creative space.

Intrinsic Motivation

Along those same lines of inspiration: I got to see author Louise Penny speak in Nashville a couple of weeks ago (which also provided an exciting opportunity to meet an online friend from England at the same time- YAY!) and she was great to listen to. So much resonated with me – her age and late start to writing novels, the long road to publication, and along that road she had encountered a major writer’s block. Too much of her brain space had been taken up with the idea of publishing until she had her aha moment: she needed to write that first book for herself. And while I did not have the same kind of block when I wrote my first novel, it flowed from the same feeling: I wrote it for myself. I wrote it for the joy of it. That is what I always go back to when I get mired in the slog of not kicking down the door of publication: write for the personal joy of it.

Louise Penny with me and friends

A bit blurry, but Penny in the middle!

Currently Reading (print): Unbroken: 13 Stories Starring Disabled Teens – ed. Marieke Nijkamp

Currently Reading (audio): How Hard Can It Be? – Allison Pearson

Song of the Week:

My partner (Andy Rundquist) plays with the Hamline University Jazz Ensemble and has had great fun arranging new songs for them. I enjoy these songs from the concerts because they’re always just a step out of the norm for that group, which makes them that much better. Last night’s arrangement: “Horizon Line” by Red Baraat.

Posted in Learning, Listening, Reading, Writing | Tagged , , , , , , | 2 Comments